Monthly Archives: September 2013

“D” is for Depression…and other stuff

It is now the eve of day nine of what has so far been the happiest, most restful and yet productive vacation I have experienced in a long time, maybe ever.  And what’s this?  Someone or something wants to rob me of my joy!  The clouds roll in and I can feel the darkness.  My bed calls me, and I fear sleep may be my only escape.   A brief nap and I’m awake again, out of bed and fighting for my life.  Seriously, can’t I have just one more day or two or three without the clouds and without the fight.  It has been so peaceful.

Ironically, I had lunch with a girlfriend this week who I hadn’t seen in years, and she confided in me that she is depressed all the time, that she just sits for hours and stares at the wall.  She shared that she hates leaving her home and had almost cancelled our lunch date.  As I I responded that I was so glad she had decided to come and that I understood and also struggled daily with depression, I reflected in the back of my mind on what a joyful, wonderful week I had been having, wondered at the fact, and silently thanked my Heavenly Father.  Conversing with my friend was a mixed blessing–nice to have someone to share experience with but not wishing my own experience on anyone, and hoping against all hope that I was on the permanent upswing.



Green Tea: Metabolism Boosting Gold?

I’m always looking for easier or better ways to accomplish difficult tasks.  At present, the most difficult task I am facing is losing 100 plus pounds.  The other day, I happened upon an article on my home page,, entitled No time to work out? Try these 7 tricks to boost your metabolism that grabbed my attention.  Hopeful but a bit skeptical because I’m not one to buy into fad diets or false promises, I clicked on the link and received a pleasant surprise.  This is a great article–short and to the point and full of helpful tips.  Some of my takeaways from the article, realistic changes I believe I can make now to help boost my metabolism and therefore attain my weight loss goal:  Drink more ice cold water, eat more lean protein, drink a few cups of high quality green tea every day, and try to sleep at least 9 hours per night.

What about the suggestions that I am unable to make work (at least not right now)?  In the past, my all or nothing attitude would have defeated me before I started.  An older, wiser me now realizes that some benefit is better than no benefit and has learned to be content with what I am able to do.  I don’t own heavy weights and am not in good enough shape to do a quick, high-intensity workout.  Spicy foods don’t work for me–not the temperature going down nor the indigestion afterward.  And, I only eat organic produce when it’s available and affordable which is almost never.  Four out of seven I can do.  That’s not too bad.  I’ll add the weight training once I have the first four mastered and am in a little better shape.  For now, I am happy sitting in front of my computer sipping a cup of Teavana’s Gyokuro Imperial Green Tea which better be worth its weight in metabolism boosting gold because it is almost as expensive. 🙂


Metformin, My Bicycle and Me

Thanks to my son and in spite of the rain and all the recent articles I have read that question whether or not exercise is actually a factor in weight loss, I dragged out my poor, neglected bicycle yesterday, pumped up its tires and went for a ride.  It has been so long that I honestly believed I would be lucky to make it two or three feet before I had a heart attack or a stroke and came crashing to the ground.  It was a beautiful day, started out with a soft rain, and when the rain ceased a light cloud cover and a soft breeze took its place.  My son was easy on me and supportive, allowing me to set the pace.  Having a gentle encourager made the effort so much more bearable.  I would never have made it without him.  I have gained so much weight since I last rode that just pumping up my tires and bending to put on my athletic shoes had me breathing hard and ready to quit. Continue reading Metformin, My Bicycle and Me

Optimist, Pessimist, Scientist or Realist?

People have at times complained that I can be negative or a pessimist, but I have always believed myself to be more of a realist–someone who looks at both sides and comes up with a logical conclusion.  The following photo that I clipped from my sister’s Facebook post tonight describes my view of life better than I can.

The optimist sees the glass half-full; the pessimist sees it half-empty. And then there’s the scientist…glass always full

I’m not a scientist, but scientists are, we hope, realists.  So, by my way of thinking, the glass is always full, but the way you see life by looking at the glass depends on whether you need air or water more at any given time.  Life is what it is.  Some people make it worse or better than it is.  I try to take a more logical and rational approach.  It doesn’t always work–we all have bad days–but I give it my best.


Weight Loss Surgery: Not just an easy pill to swallow!

I learned something about myself during my visit with the bariatric surgeon the other day.  I am, for quality of life reasons, willing to swallow a pill that may have harmful effects at some point down the road, but I am not willing to subject myself to unnecessary surgery that could damage me for life or kill me right now.  In other words, I am able to turn a blind eye toward the possible side effects of the various weight-loss producing meds that my doctor prescribes for me, but I am unable (at least at this point in my journey) to allow a surgeon to drastically alter my innards so that I might look thinner and feel better–the operative (no pun intended) word here being might.   That being said, I am glad that I investigated the surgical option and did not give in to last minute, negative self-talk which, fueled by the lack of positive feelings about the surgery from my family, urged me to cancel my appointment and tried to make me feel like a fool for ever considering it.   Gaining facts to make an informed decision is never a waste of time.

The surgeon was very kind and informative.  He spent almost an hour describing the procedures and answering all of the questions posed to him by my loved ones and myself.  At the end of the hour, he wrapped up by saying that I should think about it and come up with more questions.  I’m sure he could sense the uncertainty and negativity in the air.  My loved ones were still completely against the surgery, and I was left concerned about the risks and unconvinced that any of the options would solve my problem. Continue reading Weight Loss Surgery: Not just an easy pill to swallow!

Is Weight Loss Surgery a Copout?

Hi, my name is Crystal, and I am 125 pounds overweight. My doctor says I am morbidly obese. I don’t know about that, but I do know that I can barely bend over to pick something up or to tie my shoes or clip my toenails. I huff and puff at the slightest exertion, my joints and muscles ache, my bladder is unpredictable at best, and many of my clothes are tight and uncomfortable. I am tired and depressed most of the time, and my sleep apnea has gotten worse. After trying various diets and exercise along with several different prescription medications that are known to produce weight loss to no avail, my doctor, who is concerned for my long-term health and wellbeing, asked me if I would consider bariatric surgery. I was shocked. Continue reading Is Weight Loss Surgery a Copout?